I am sad, but

I am sad; I am the saddest among the intact world.
I want to be happy but I am not when all others are
I believed the entire world conspire for my success
But I realize, I was wrong, none conjure for others

All machinate for their own success, not for others
Even I desire and complot to become a success
All want to be success; that is the cabal within all
Might be that confederacy lead people to live life

I had a lot of pains in the past, all might had pain
But my past pains induced ripe resolutions later
Now also I feel all my anguishes are for future grace
Such altering go through of mine is a lesson for my life

So now I welcome all my hurts with receptive mind
I anticipate the presence of someone in my life
To descend and switch my botherations into joy
I don’t know who is that, I trust that might be God.



What is a belief? Is it not a burden
Is belief makes man bound to someone.
Relations are always bound by belief.
It compels to give up one's wishes

A wife believes the words of her man
Gets hurt when that belief doesn't keep
She losses her valuable time and joy
by waiting him to safeguard the belief

A kid believes his father on his promise
And get spoiled when he finds it in vain
Beliefs are and should be always blind
One forgets his or her self on belief

Losing their own self leads to failure
So belief becomes the cause of failure
So it is better not to believe anyone
Since you will fail with a blind belief

A successful life is not impossible
To have it, one should believe oneself
That is the only belief which can gain
Now I know the secret of success is this.



I am sad, I am sad, I am sad
As Antonio used to be sad.
Dont ask me the grounds, why
As I dont know what it is

Somewhere in my mind, I desire
I desire to explore the world
Desire to find the world as it is
I wish to visit the world wonders

It includes a long list as
The pyramids and their accumulation
The Himalayas and its heights
The steppes and their loneliness

The Aral sea and the dry sand
The Rockies and Andie's with it
The amazon river with its duration
The fascinating woods that grow there

The great lakes with all its elegance
The heavy rains there in Chirapunji
The Eschimos and their snow houses
The blue whales in their natural ground

My mind is not happy without it
Hope the exposure open my mind.
I really want to come up in life
without any pain that haunts me

I want to know only one thing
What is the reason for unhappiness.
I know only one thing, almost all are unhappy
Finally I found the reason, it is commitment



When I was lonely, my mind asked me to close my eyes
I closed the outer eyes and then alive the inward eyes.
While opening I have seen a lot of thoughts which gaze
Gaze at me with entangling doubts as if I am in a maze.

Mazes are always confusing and I asked myself savour
Why the life does not accompany all the wishes in favour?
Was a little messy to have the rejoinder for all my savour
So I asked the creator, who made us in versatile flavour.

My quaere was never quaking to the creator since he expected
Expected me to have an outrageous savour as such a suspected
So he unwind my susceptible thoughts and feelings as expected
Now I found myself relaxed with a mind that has been impressed.

The very sensation arose in my mind was about confusing
Every knot in every mind has been proved to be imbibing
I learnt a big lesson from the muddle I had in this morning
Only the one who created me and you can only be comforting.


I want to be with you

I love the moments I spend with you,
I love the thrill I feel when you are with me
I feel those moments as something special
I find myself as if in heaven when I am with you

I can say one thing with my best heart, that
I am the happiest person when you are with me.
I find you as a gift, given from heaven, when
While crying for solace among my pain

I believe, all my prayers are answered
The Almighty listened my tears, and
I have been given you as my Love and Life
I did, do and will do expect a lot from you

I find a vast happiness lying before me with you
I want to give life to all your dreams and desires in me
I want to say, you are my hope, and conclude it as
I love you my dear, I love you.


I am not a mother

I am not a mother
Is being a mother is everything in a woman’s life.
I am not sure whether it is? But people consider it like that
I never could understand the exact truth behind being a mother

I am not a mother
I don’t shed even a single drop of tear, when people laugh at me
I don’t feel bad when people stare at me on not being a mother
I consider myself as special in each and every thought of mine

I am not a mother.
I don’t find anything odd on the fact that I am not a mother
I realize the truth that woman also want to be a social animal like man
I understand the trouble women face when feel lonely, as a woman

I am not a mother
I can see the pain suffered by a woman when they give birth, yet
I really know that why a woman want to be a mother with that pain
I could make out the fact behind the acceptance of that pain

I am not a mother
I feel it every day, when I want to become a mother, that
I am in pain of loneliness, bigger than the pain I will have on giving birth
I expect my child to come and reduce the pain given by this erring world.

I am not a mother
I now realize the cause of all the great feeling of being a mother
I also identify the reason for pain which is there in my heart always
I understand that, it is not a pain, but my desire to be a mother

Yes, among all the pain I have, my real pain of not being a mother.
I want my child to come and remove my pain


My life is a tear

While arriving this world from my mother’s womb,
I was reluctant to cry because of my boldness.
People had to keep my head down to make me cry
As a crying child is a blessing to the world.

People believe that children are sent from heaven.
There they have every comfort they want because
They are with their creator, and the creator is enough
To give them the best and there is no tear or pain

When they enter this world, they loss his presence
The comfort and consolation given by him is not here
So, the moment they enter this world is painful
And they cry, when the world rejoice on their arrival

But I didn’t cry even in that moment, cause of boldness
I never wanted to show my tears to anyone, but now
After spending a long time in this world, my life is a tear
The world made to shed my boldness and call my life a tear

It is the story of each and every one in this world.
Everyone comes in this world with a lot of dreams.
But the reality denies to match with the expectation
It makes them to say as I say now that My life is a tear.


Everyone has dreams, some want to fulfill their dreams,
Some others are not even dare to think of fulfilling that.
People encourage to dream to have fortune till sky, only then
You will be able to make a fortune ranging till hills…

I don’t prefer a dream which makes me reach in heights
I prefer a vast dream and fortune, the reason is simple
Human beings do not dwell on mountains or sky
They live on earth, and that makes me fulfill my dream on earth.

Some consider earth as their mother, but I don’t listen them
I think of a person, who made this earth so wonderful
When I look at myself, I feel myself as a miracle
With all my abilities and features, I am a miracle par excellence

Everything in and around us is a miracle that re mind blowing
Then what will be he, who made all these, he or she?
I don’t know whether the creator is male or female?
I don’t know where he stays? Scriptures say that God is a man

But I don’t know who wrote all these scriptures
Is it the creator himself who penned it down, I am not sure
I know only one thing; there is someone who took pain
To create me and this entire universe so beautifully,

Mother loves her kids, because she took pain to give birth
If you had pain to do something, you will surely love the outcome
He took pain to create me so he loves me and that thought comforts me.
So I dream of a day, when I can meet him and that is my only DREAM.


Tears of Love

Walking through the garden of Gethsemane, I saw our Lord Jesus, getting down on his knees praying to his Father. There were tears of sorrow in his eyes. He knew that it was almost time for him to die. But he could not understand why, the Father had deserted him. As he continued to pray, I watched him as he was about to go away, after the kiss of betray. As I look at him, I could see a single tear of love, that was shed for the lost and for all.

I could see hour approaching, they came and took my Jesus away. As I watched as they disappeared. I knew that Jesus would show no fear. As I watched behind a tree. I knew that I would be set free.

There, in the courtyard, I saw the angry mob of all the followers. I could hear the cry of crucify! I looked up I saw tear filled eyes. The very single tear of love. I knew that was sent from above. His hour had come at last.

I watched as they lead Jesus away. I saw the heavy cross and thorns that were placed apron my savior. I saw each beating that he took. I knew the Father could not bear to look. I thought that I could see a single tear of love as the Father cried for thee. I watched as they led him towards a hill called Calvary. I watched as they nailed his feet and hands. As they raised him up, I could see the single tear of love that was shed.

As the hours go by, I heard him as he shouted! “It is finished!" as he looked up at the heaven sky. I just stood as watched as he breathe his very last. I saw the very last tear of love streaming down his cheek.


Indian Women Through Ages

In spite of their urge for equality, Indian women were not being able to lead a life exactly on par with men. Always they kept their own aims and objectives, desires and aspirations, dress styles and behavioral patterns, and roles and statuses. This fact does not indicate that men and women represent two different cultures as such. Both Indian men and women represent one way of life, one culture and one heritage.

Swami Vivekananda had said “that country and that nation which did not respect women have never become great nor will ever in future”. Swami’s words bring us to a conclusion that the status assigned to women in any society reflects the nature of its cultural richness and the level of its civilization standards. A study of the history of status of women has therefore great importance to understand the cultural rich ness and the civilization standards of a particular society.

Women in ancient India, particularly during the Vedic period, enjoyed a position which was on the whole much more satisfactory than in the later periods. Women underwent almost a kind of Servitude during the medieval period and their position went on improving during the British period and after independence. Today Indian women are almost assigned an equal status with men. All their political, economic, educational and other disabilities have been removed legally.

The history of Status of women India can be studied in three stages namely

• Status of women in Ancient India
• Status of women in medieval India
• Status of women in modern India

Status of women in Ancient India
There are two opinions regarding the status of women in ancient India. Some scholars say that ancient Indian women were almost “the equals of men”, while some others argue that women were held not only in disrespect but even in positive hatred. These scholars formed their opinion on the basis of some passages from our classical literature. But their opinions do not mirror the actual position of women, because most of the opinions are contextual.

The status of women could be learned by analyzing the social, economic, political and religious rights they enjoyed over the years. The status of ancient Indian women can be better studied in the following stages

• Vedic and post Vedic period
• Period of Dharmashastras and epics
• Puranic period
• Buddhist period

Women in the Vedic and the Post-Vedic Periods

It is believed that Vedic Period is spread over from 3000BC to 600 BC. We can make only some general observations and broad generalizations regarding the status of women during this vast period

Literary and historical researches have revealed that women held a position of equality with men during the Vedic period. They never observed ‘purdah’ (veil) in the Vedic and epic periods. They enjoyed freedom in areas such as education, marriage, economic production, spending money, religious activities etc. They enjoyed freedom in selecting their mates (Swayam vara). Love marriages were also there (Gandharva Vivaha) 

Widows were permitted to remarry. The custom of Niyoga was prevalent in which a brother or the nearest relative of a deceased husband could marry the widow with the permission of elders. They however were not able to divorce. Even men did not enjoy that right. Women were given complete freedom in family matters and were treated as ‘Ardhanginis’ (Better halves).The practice of Sati is nowhere mentioned in the Rig-Veda Dowry was there but it was not a social evil , was just a symbolic practice.

Though male children were preferred to female children, daughters were never ill treated. They received education like boys and went through the Brahmacharya discipline including the Upanayana ritual. Women studied the Vedic literature like men and some of them like Lopamudra, Ghosa and Sikata –Nivavari, figure among the authors of the Vedic hymns. Other women scholars of the age included Vishwavara, Apala, Shashijasi, Indrani, Sasvati, Gargi, Sulabha, Maithreyee etc 

In property matters there were disparities between men and women .Women enjoyed limited rights in inheriting property. Each unmarried daughter was entitled to one-fourth share of patrimony received by her brothers. They had control over their “Stridhan” (Gifts and properties received at the time of marriage).As a wife woman had no direct share in her husband’s property. As a widowed mother, she had some rights. Thus it could be generalized that the social situation was not in favor of women processing property, and yet protection was given to them as daughters and wives.

In the religious field, wife enjoyed full rights and regularly participated in religious ceremonies with her husband. Women actively participated in the religious discourses. They could even perform sacrifices by themselves in the absence of their husbands.

Women during the epics and dharmashastras

Women in the epics also had given honorable positions like women of the Vedic age. The two classical epics, Ramayana and Mahabharata have given a respectable place for women. In both of these we find vast references of the expression of courage, strong will power, and valor of women, like Kaikeye, Sita, Rukmini, Satyabhama, Subhadra, Draupathi, Savithri and others.

During the period of Dharmashastras and Puranas the position of women underwent a major change. Daughters were regarded as second class citizens when freedom of women was curtailed. The discontinuance of upanayanam, neglect of education, and the lowering of age at marriage caused disastrous problems upon the position and status of women.

In the social field pre puberty marriages came to be practiced, widow remarriage was prohibited; husband was given the status of God for a woman, education was totally denied to women, custom of Sati became increasingly prevalent. Purdah system came into vogue and practice of polygyny came to be tolerated.

In the economic field, a woman was totally denied and it was said that “a wife and a slave cannot own property”. In the religious field, she was forbidden to offer sacrifices, prayers, practice penance, and undertake pilgrimages.

Women in the Buddhist Period

In the Buddhist period, the status of women improved a little, though there was no tremendous change. Buddha preached social equality and tried to improve their cultural, educational and religious statuses.

Buddhism never regarded marriage as an inescapable thing for women. Widowhood was not considered disrespectful. Women could pursue education and they were permitted to become “Sanyasis” (saints). The bhikshuni sangha opened new avenues of cultural activities for women. Their political and economic status however remained unchanged.

Status of women in medieval India

The medieval period (500AD to 1500 AD) was again a set back for the Status of women in India. The Muslim invasion of India changed the entire society including women.
Practice of child marriage, prohibition of widow remarriage etc were imposed again.

The practice of child marriage came into being again in the fear of Muslim invaders marriage in an early. The seduction or kidnap of young girls by the Muslims compelled the parents to arrange their daughters to marry in an early age. This kept the women away from education, and had to suffer the brunt of family life in an earlier age.

The glorification of the ideal “pathivratya” made the society prohibit widow remarriage. Child widows had a miserable life. They were denied education and public life. Prohibition of sex-life made a few of them lead immoral life and some even became prostitutes. To prevent sex offences child widows were forced to forsake all types of beautification to make them unattractive. The glorification of Pathivratya and the miserable life as a widow made many women to go for Sati. Sati refers to a practice in which the married women used to jump into the funeral pyre of their husbands with the hope of attaining “sadgathi” or “moksha”. There were instances were married women are forcibly pushed into the funeral pyre of their husbands.

There was also the horrible practice of “Jauhar” in which the Rajput women used to immolate themselves collectively with a view to protect their chastity whenever it was very much endangered.

After the Muslim invasion the Hindu women also forced to wear Purdah (veil) like Muslims women to protect themselves from the sexy look of the invaders. The purdah system led to the complete seclusion of women from education and public life.

Devadasi system is another social evil which caused the degradation of Indian women. It is a custom that denies marital opportunity to women in the name of religion insisting them to become devadasis or basavis to serve the God in the temple as dancers and singers. The devadasis and basavis compelled by circumstances to become prostitutes. This system spoiled the prospects of many young girls in the medieval period.

Muslim women also were in an equally poor position in India. The Muslim community which believes in male dominance could hardly give equal rights to women. Muslim men could marry four women and divorce any wife at will by giving her talaq.Women did not have similar rights. They were restricted from public life, education, cultural and religious activities.

Status of women in modern period

Along with the British people the western culture and it’s life styles and values also came to India.It helped to improve the women life.

Jisha Jagadeesh

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